Just being emotional!

Hohoho Tang Xin Feng Bao is such a fabulous show. The relationships there are so complex but the characters can make everything seem so hilarious.

Sometimes I wonder about my relationship. Is there anytime that I am made to feel more important than her friends? If she had to choose between me and her friends.. say just for a dinner or a date.. she would naturally choose me.. but she would feel abit unhappy having to choose. I would not hesitate. There are things she would not want to do. But I do. Maybe it is all about sacrificing! I am lonely now. Because there is no one to talk to on a friday night. She tells me I have to be independant. I have been independant for all my life. I learnt how to walk the forlorn night, how to enjoy my own company. I do not need anyone to tell me how to enjoy myself. Ever so, it is possible to feel both sad and satisfied at the same time. Because missing you is something that will always be on my mind. Maybe this is not something I can withstand for very long. The love is true. But having to make me feel second class is something I should not be feeling. Yah it could be my problem that I am feeling it now. It could be hers. But if there is a problem then it is still a problem.
I can give up the love of my life, even it means hurt for the rest of my life. Perhaps it is because I do not know how much it hurts to lose someone. I only know missing is painful also. And with my missing I am driving her further and further away. All for nothing. No wonder loving someone can be painful.