two more weeks

Today was a good day. This week was a good week. Because I did not press her too much. Because I did not give her much stress. I know now that she is working so she would not have time to check my blog and I do not want her to know how much I need her.

Anyway it feels good to be around her. It feels as good to be around pandas. Going to East Coast cycling feels good also. If she needs space and time, 1 year 2 years i will give them to her. 10 years, my heart will be still be hers. But this is really quite a bad time to not love me. haha How about never ? But of coz i need to understand her and give her what she needs. But maybe two more weeks of concern to ask from her? Two more weeks of normality? haha just to help me last through this period? No.. I am scared to ask from her because that will give her more pressure and drive her further away.

Nevermind about that. Shall perservere. Shall be patient. Shall endure the bad feelings and emotions and concentrate on the good memories. Shalll drive away the fear. Most importantly shall concentrate on my books. Although it is not working, but I will try. I hope no one reads this post because I do not wish for any one to be overduly concerned.

Anyway yah, hope to be able to sleep well today. Maybe at 4 or 5am. There are two nice songs which I will just listen to over and over again.

对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
秋天的风一阵阵的吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过......
那样的爱情也是会让人难过到流泪的

想起我不完美
你会不会逃离我生命的范围
想着你的滋味
我会不会把这个枕头变得甜美*
想起白天的约会
忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水
远离我梦中的堡垒
一个人失眠全
世界失眠
无辜的街灯守候明天
幸福的失眠
只是因为害怕闭上眼
如何想你想到六点
如何爱你爱到终点
一个人失眠
全世界失眠
幸福的失眠
只是因为害怕闭上眼
如何想你想到六点
如何爱你爱到终点
如何爱你爱到终点
想起我的时候
你会不会好像我一样不能睡
想像你的暧昧
我会不会数不到绵羊一双一对
想起白天的约会
忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水
远离我梦中的堡垒