Doctor

Good evening. Tired. I am getting addicted to you. Am I lacking someone to talk to? Perhaps. Just a transitory phase. People come and go. Just happened that many people are out of my life now. Had a nice chat with two doctors today. One of them a gynae from KK. I wonder if he is married. At 36, he got his specialty, lectures at NUS and life seems good. How about his wedding ring? To ask him directly would be too rude. Another opthalmologist I know also has a pair of naked hands. And what will I be? 12 more years after med sch before I become a neuro surgeon? Will I even get to be one? Such an ardous journey, I might even opt for some other easy way out. Or I might not even perform well enough to specialise. Alas all these are dreams. And If there is anything certain, I do not fall short of even the most aloof dreams. Why had I wanted to become a doctor? I guess ability wise, my intellect and dexterity would place me in good stead. Secondly, I have this passion. Although I have not been in a hospital prior to my interview, I just have vivid images of myself as a doctor. It would be true to say that I would gain immense satisfaction from treating the ill, and that would be one factor that drives me on. I wouldnt mind the gratitude from those I treat and of course an admiration for my skills is always welcome. But that is not to say I enjoy treating everyone. Some without genuine illness or those ill - manner ones would always be hard for one to swallow. I was asked to cite 3 reasons. I stopped here. I guess numbers do not matter. It is the force of the reasons, not their quantity. One good reason will suffice. How about my weaknesses? I have always had a problem thinking what weaknesses I have. I just see myself as one without a major fault though with plenty of areas for improvement. So I guess tardiness and sloth would be two issues I have always grapple with. I am plain lazy, I wake up late when ever I allow myself to. That is saying a lot.. I am rather late for my appointments and only people who mean alot to me will see me being punctual. Then I am awfully untidy. I can just leave my stuff all over the house. I can just throw the papers on the floor after reading them. I might just be sloth reincarnate. Well... I need to go read my medical books already . Inspiration! Thick glasses ! Worry not as despite the overflowing knowledge, I shall not morph into a nerd, but a gentlemanly scholarly. A charming one at that! oh boy what ego!