你的第一

看过你的第一眼
就离不开你一切
你不懂这种痛
如果这是命我甘愿去对决
你不要最后的选择是拒绝
我和他有何分别
怎比试爱的强烈
掏不空这种痛
我不过渴望你一点的了解
爱要的是完全容不下残缺
我只要做你心里的第一
为甚么你眼里却还是犹疑
没有你我只是废墟喔
不稀罕做谁的天下第一
我只想做你心永远的唯一
能不能有这种荣幸
抱紧你

怎湮灭这感觉它把我撕裂喔
怎么解这纠结在爱的江湖
我不曾退怯

Finally I have the mood to blog

Just 5 minutes ago, I was feeling quite fresh and raring to update my poor neglected blog. I took my time to select some interesting photos and upload them. In the end, sleepiness is slowly creeping into me and I wonder how I will fend it off!
When was the last time I had properly made an entry here? Probably ages ago. Shall I blog about this month? How about the past 6 months ? Or should I begin at the beginning of the year? When my mind keeps wandering to my wide and comfortable bed, it doesn't work quite well in recalling stuff. It took me 10 minutes to get down to writing this sentence.
I am really going into complete system shutdown. In a few hours' time I will have to head down to Alexandra hospital for the morning ward rounds. What a drag. 7.30am should be well spent in bed, blissfully and unknowingly awaiting the first ray of light to grace your room.
Maybe today would be a good way to start, as good way to get the keyboard noisy as i attempt to blog my life. It is currently 4am in the wee morning. I just got off msn with chinsiang, might well be doing my GP posting with him. What a great achievement it would be if I can just find a GP somewhere below my house for this posting. Imagine waking up at 8.55am and still be on time for your first patients of the day. However 8.55am might also prove too early for me. Whenever I can sleep in, noon is usually a good estimator of what time i would get up by.
I missed the first day of this new posting as usual. Heard from the rest that the surgeon is quite a tough nut, maybe I might just be in for a good time later. Some grilling and heat would be a poor way to start the day, but I am getting better at treating such matters with ice cool apathy.
I was leading training again yesterday. I thought it would be a welcome break for me after stepping down. And the new chairperson has to go and break her arm, effectively putting her out of action for 6 weeks. I really teaching the freshies though. Today the coach was there and really stole my show. Thursday I shall reign supreme as I lead training and totally call the shots. Will there be more girls? I definitely hope so, but this year is already proving to be quite a lucrative one, 3 times the number of girls last year. That means 3 girls this year. haha Sounds pathetic? Well, I did receive at least 6 emails from freshies asking me about joining Judo. Does that mean they are just slow to appear? Maybe I can get someone to pray for me on that. :d I am getting more and more appreciative of the prayers Jing and Co offer me. To begin with, I was already very appreciative when Xunyu first prayed for me. So touched that I allowed her to bring a friend along for my combined martial arts display for free.
Yuankai was really amused as I pointed out to him the girl from Kendo who looks really sweet. Maybe he was amused coz Jeremy was trying very hard to impress that girl. An action which I believe resulted in the exact opposite effect from its original intentions. She always seems to be very bubbly and even stole my gi today so I guess her confused looks is the most polite reply to Jeremy's chatter. Then Jeremy pointed out to me about the affair between kendo and karate. I shall await future developments with eager interests then.
While walking to subway for dinner, B told me about his long distance relationship. His girlfriend is a hongkie and has returned to HK a month ago. What was interesting was that despite agreeing to terminate their relationship before her departure, they had been reluctant to do so at the end. A long term plan was thus hatched, and I would say it seems shaky at best. Both shall remain apart for remainder of their studies till B graduates and serves his bond. After which, he will fly over and join her for a lovely and teary reunion. Even more interesting was the fact that B had already been seeing another girl, though he does seem to love the girlfriend in HK more. In his words: it is not the same when I hug her( the latest girlfriend) , the HK one gives me a totally different feeling, something that cannot be replaced.
I had quite an interesting year behind me so far. Imagine one major Judo tournament where I led NUS to 1 gold 1 silver team medals, 4 golds, 2 silvers and 8 bronze individual medals. I collected a silver and a bronze myself. Then I failed my promos, passed them the second round, all while giving tuition to about 5 or 6 students. Then suddenly my popularity soared and I receive almost a call every 3 days , now I have 11 tuition jobs.. then there was a CSFC test, a medicine posting test followed by my Combined martial arts Performance where I am the project director.. also there are the yunnan meetings every fortnight. Pretty much rollercoaster stuff and the troughs mostly balanced out the crescendos.
It is not like I have a choice not to take so many tuitions. I was telling my mum that day about dropping a few. Her response was pretty witty : you take so many tuitions then you have no time. You don't take so many tuitions then you have no food to eat. Pick your choice.
I am glad I am passing 2 students to B. From now I will just take group tuitions, they are so much more time efficient and great money churners. It is still August and already I am dreaming of the december trip where I can leave Singapore behind and return to my refuge in China. Sometimes I wonder if I joined YN just to get away from this frantic place. I like to smell the roses along the way, like to make conversations with the animals and I like to appreciate the journey. A frenzy pace may be something I can cope comfortable with but it doesn't represent my ideal choice.
I lost the battle with the ZZZZzzzzz monster. I shall grab what ever of the 1.5 hour sleep I have left. Good night and good morning. To all those who read me.