A little breathing space

I have been really busy.
SO many things have happened since my last entry.
My heart broke into a million pieces, and right now it is still bleeding.
Occasionally I would feel that breathing was difficult. A crushing pain
in my heart.
Love comes in many form. WHen a love departs, it enlarges your heart.
The space for the person will always remain. You just have more room
for hurt.

School started. FInally . Two years of waiting. EVen as I took up the scholarship,
I had always wondered what being a doctor would be like.
Time is always a pace ahead of me. Try as I might,
I am late for almost all the days. How can I ever be a competent doctor
if I continue in this sloppy fashion?
Time for improvement.

Tuitions.
7 times a week. I would often reach home at 10pm. My weekends are
stacked. One tuition after another. Beneath that stack, you would find
me, hardly gasping. However their exams are near, so it would be a responsibility
for me to see them through this hurdle. You had placed their confidence
in me, I must perservere.

School work.
11 out of 20. That is if I remembered correctly. I still managed
to squeeze in a few moments for glazing into my books.
But I totally did not study for this test. I shall allow myself
only one chance, next time I shall be better and stronger.
My classmates are wonderful people. Few of us would slack around.
Have prolonged self declared breaks and noodles eating sessions.
Not to forget the Karaoke sessions.
I like my tutorial group, think the people would make great friends.

Judo.
Vice chairman.
Finally managed to push through for 2 trainings per week.
National team. Still a dream. My injuries are seriously hampering me.
However my form is rising. There are so many things to substitute
for normal training. I cannot use my right hand. I still got promoted.
SParred twice for my Grading. Won them . SIngle handedly. My
opponents were also blue belts. I had expected a tougher fight.
True to my previous words. I have not lost a competitive match yet.
But I am not playing with the big boys yet.
Soon.
Have a few ideas for Judo. Maybe a trip to malacca could be on
our itinery. Train with a school, have a few competitive matches.
Inter faculty games. It was never done before for martial arts.
Why not.
IVP. We shall snatch the top varsity team title back this year.
I like leading training. Glad most of them like the intensity.
Have to improve my variety of techniques and imparting
methods. Strenuous exercises.
What cannot kill you makes you stronger.

I shall cherish those around me. Muackz mUackz.
I love my family.
Time would always be better spent with them than anything else.
5 years.

What I lack: sleep.
Life is meaningful.
Studies is being neglected.
But I shall pick up.
Judo. I shall get better. Think: champion.